Aug-27 2013

Still in the same boat.

Today I've spent at least four hours looking for a job. 

Don't really know what kind of job, just looking, because I need a real

job that gives things like weekends off, paid vacation and the sort, but 

it would definitely help if I knew what I wanted to do, and I don't

know that! 

It's hard growing up, and getting out there in the real world, when 

your not terribly outgoing, or brave enough to leave your comfort zone

I like my zone- well no I don't, if I liked all of it, I wouldn't be looking for

a new job to fill the spot of an old one. 

I really want to be an artist, and I really want to be a writer- but how

on earth do I motivate myself to do anything... 

Well anything in the real world- I'm definitely motivated to play video games,

or watch movies, or look at facebook- but really... I know I just have to get over

it and jump the fence, and not care if I land on my feet or not, but that's the 

scary part I guess- and I'm rather scared of not knowing, and frustrated because of it. 

I'm trying tho, even if I feel like I've wasted my day on frustrating internet sites trying

to find a job I like- when none of them seem interesting, or are something I can do! 

Better luck tomorrow.